Dad,

I remember once you left all of us home because you have an appointment somewhere and mama wasn't home that time, and I remember you called every 10 minutes to check on us and ask every little things like where are you now? What are you doing? Have you eaten? Did you lock the front door? Don't get out of the house. Don't make anything in the kitchen, everyone stay together in one place. Just stay in my room. Don't let strangers come in. If anything happens call me immediately. And I remember I said, '' we're fine, we're big enough to take care of the little sibling for few hours, don't worry''. And I remember you said, '' no matter how big you are, you will always be my little princess''.
You mean a lot to me dad, without you, I wouldn't be here.

Happy birthday dad, xoxo. :)

Favourita!

DESSERTS = STRESSED

I just realise that desserts spelled backwards is stressed when i was playing wordsearch. HAHA.

I guess desserts lead to stressed?

Or people take desserts when they stressed?

Dearest Sofea, I think you should stop consume a lot of desserts. :D

p/s : 'Sofea, dont stress yourself' - mama

“Do stuff. Be clenched, curious. Not waiting for inspiration’s shove or society’s kiss on your forehead. Pay attention. It’s all about paying attention. Attention is vitality. It connects you with others. It makes you eager. Stay eager.”

— Susan Sontag

“Sometimes you have to test someone.  Not cause you don’t trust them,  but to see how much they’ll sacrifice for you.  And sometimes you have to let them go;  not cause you suddenly stopped loving them,  but to see if they love you enough to come back." 

I love you and always will. :) 

Xo

Internal monolog.

 

“You are good.

But it is not enough just to be good.

You must be good for something.

You must contribute good to the world.

The world must be a better place for your presence.

And the good that is in you must be spread to others.”

- Gordon Hinckley-

 

 “Maybe our old wounds teach us something.
They remind us where we’ve been and what we’ve overcome.
They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future.
That’s what we like to think.

But that’s not the way it is, is it?
Somethings we’d just have to learn over and over and over again.”

Adapted from Grey’s Anatomy

“Never let your memories be greater than your dreams.”

- Doug Ivester -

Seventeen

I’m just an immature little kid.

I’m a 5 year old stuck in a 17 year olds body.

I still have this dream that I’m going to be a Princess.

Every night before I go to sleep I wish on a star outside my bedroom window. 
When I am done with my wish I lay my head down and hold my stuffed puppy.
I still have this crazy idea that Peter Pan will come for me in my sleep and take me to Neverland with him. 
Then we will go to Neverland and the boys will have a mother.

I love watching all the old Disney movies from when I was 5.

Catching lightening bugs outside seems to never bore me.

Coloring intrigues me for hours.

I’m daddy’s little girl and mommy’s mischief girl.

If there’s a birthday cake sitting out you can bet my hand will be in it.

I love love love to swing but somehow my 17 year old hips don’t always fit in all the swings.

I love to slide too. The twisty slides are my favorite.

Light brites never cease to fascinate me.

I love to think about growing up and becoming a mom,
But at the same time I don’t want to.
Growing up is is never easy.

" Who are you to judge the life I live ?

I know I'm not perfect - & I don't live to be.

But before you start pointing fingers,

make sure your hands are clean.. "

- Bob Marley

I really don't think that anyone in this world knows the real me. My closest friends know me better than anyone else, but I don't think I’ve ever let certain sides of me come out around anyone except myself. I keep some feelings hidden because no one would understand, and even if they did understand, there wouldn't be anything that anyone could do to make the feelings disappear. :')

P/s: I guess it's never too old for night time cubbies. :0

Do you ever get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? You don't want to smile and you don't want to fake being happy. But at the same time you don't know exactly what's wrong either. There isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being along never was. At least when you're alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who won't take 'I don't know' for an answer. You feel the way you do just because. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.

Dear Sofea,

shut up now, will you?

Irreplaceable

You can never replace anyone, because everyone is made up of such beautiful specific details.

Mama

She's my golden ticket to 

chocolate factory 

HEAVEN.

 I love you,
xoxo

College Life Begins.

So yeah, registration day yesterday, orientation for the whole week started today! Only for 3 days actually, haish, sofea don't make it sound like so long lah! :D So then I met new friends, I did enjoy which quite surprising actually. Haha. I'm in group 8, leading by Ziqa and shoot, I forgot the guy's name. Nevertheless, I met new people such Mina, Amy, Fara and whoa, I cant list out all their names, but they're nice so far, too early to judge, but the most important thing is, I can get along with them. Not the forget, nenek Syahirah who is currently studying in KPTM as well, but taking a different course, duhh, I cant get into our group. Imagine if only we could stay together. We're gonna have so much fun! :D

Xx

Oh, Happy Mother's Day!

Mom, you're the greatest person that ever inspired me. You're always there during my ups and downs. You never neglect me like how some mothers do. No you don't and you won't. You always there to build up my strength and spirit whenever I tend to lose it especially when I feel isolated. And I know I've done you so many wrongs, and I know that your patient is wearing thin though you never let it out, well I know. You're the only one who could bear with my antics all these while. Raising me up is such a onerous job! You did it well. You educate me, fed me, buy me good stuff, well, *smile*. Haha, what else to say? You're just good enough. I have no complain. So here am I today to say, mom, you're great, I love you more than anyone possibly could.

No one is perfect in this entire world, but still, you're the best.

"Nobody knows the work she makes,
To keep the home together.
Nobody knows  the steps she takes,
Nobody knows-but Mother."