Monday, April 25, 2011

A Friend or Foe?

A friend is define as a person whom knows everything about you. One who knows and accept your imperfection with whole heart. Friends come and go, walk in and walk out in your life. No one has ever guarantee that they'll be there at the end of your life. But in some way, when you trust your friend, when you have faith in them, you'll place at least a little credence that they will be there whenever you need them.

I've been living in this planet for almost a couple of decades and I've seen lots of people with zillions behavior. Quite recently, I knew a friend who was a friend by name. And as I said for a zillion times again, I’m eighteen and I make mistakes. I'm not saying it's a goof by knowing her, but perhaps I should have drawn a fine line between us. She's nice, no doubt. But then I just wake up and being very conscious that everything they said was absolutely right. Where deep down, I whispered to myself 'I should have listened to them'. But then again, regardless of what they have judged her, let's just keep it to myself, as I think everyone in the entire world did criticize others.

And now as time goes by, I felt uneasy in her presence. There was once, after some time, I went out lunch with her, where, I don't feel the so-called-comfortableness I used to have heretofore. I hardly share things with her at the moment. And I get real awkward to just be left alone with her. Enough said.

We were close as thick as thieves, but not anymore. Look back on, who was the one calling for whom? Who did asked favors from whom? Bet she disremember that. My amigo once said 'not all friends are kept'. And know what? It's not fallacious. Remember back, what did trigger me to pulled myself out. I’m not raking up the past, but nah, guess you know better, chum.

I guess the previous post was too in a roundabout way or maybe unselfish for you. And if you're contemplating this post as selfishness, one thing left to say, I digested that from you. And for what is happening now, for what I've made another party felt when I was tight-knit with you, I guess I'm collecting my paybacks now. The world goes round. The end.

P/s : Oh, by the way, I don't buy your chivalry anymore. Please do commit to your memory.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

What you see is not always what they mean.

When you first met one person, or get to know a person, everything seem to be very pleasing. Everything about them are flawless. You like the way they treat you, the way the speak to you, the way they laugh, everything. In other word, you fall for their amiability. And somehow I believe what they said, that in this phase, our body produces myriad of endorphins that make us feel outlandishly happy.

But question is, how long does it lasts? A month or two? A year? In time you'll get to know them better. It's where you realize that they are human being. They aren't perfect, they have flaws. Where in sooth, you can't accept their vile behavior. Think again, you are a human being too. You have flaws. Everybody does. They might dislike your odious behavior as well. Take that in your account.

I've been there, done that. It's a sheer bullshit I must say here. But what I muse on until hell freezes over, we know that it's going to happen and yet we tend to let ourselves drown in it.

Friday, April 15, 2011

Yes You Are.

For one thing I'm unhesitating, I'm not your slave nor your writer. I jotted down whatever I need for myself and certainly not for you. I just don't get the drift why is it so arduous to write yourself? #questionsisometimesponder

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TWITTER ultimately. :)

After hours of hellish break without anything better-off to do yesterday while waiting for French class, I've finally signed up an account for twitter. *applause* bahaha. Consequently, I've been twitting the whole day and trying hard to understand how it works which ensued late-night-rushing-and-kelamkabuting to get my report done on time.

Eldritch enough, after I have twitter account, I didn't sign in my facebook account for real!
*big round of applause*

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

I Wear My Heart on My Sleeve,

Sometimes in life, there are things you want other people to know but sometimes, you just don't know how to face them. I just don't know what's got into me. But I guess there is just something wrong with me. And I don't know what it is. Everything is just not right. So shut up. Did I just said shut up to myself? Ain't gonna happen. *chuckles*

Everything turned topsy-turvy when there was nothing happened literally. I'm throwing all my anger to anyone that happens to be with me.

I'm awfully sorry.

There's one thing for you to know, I can't change what's already happened. But, I'll try to change myself for what's going to happen.

No promises, I said I'll try.

Friday, April 1, 2011

True story.

 Some people dream of success while others wake up and work hard at it.