Monday, March 14, 2011

Timeless friend

After one whole week of mid term break, routine of waking up early in the morning, get your clothes well ironed, get homeworks and assignments all done, back to normal. Everyone seems to be excited to get back on the wheel. How awkward I don't feel like one.

As I step into the class, I could see hooray moments all over. People throwing questions like 'hey where did you spent your hols?', 'what did you do?', 'did you catch any movies?', so on and so forth. I can see everyone is wearing dazzling smiles all the time. Close friends ran to each other to get  one's arm, shows their affection after couples of days of not meeting.

But me? No. I don't feel the excitement that I used to have before. I know that I oughtn't show the emotion. But things haven't been that good nowadays. Mid term examinations, Japan's natural disaster, undone stuffs, cold treatment, communication breakdown. Everything. Somehow, experience has mellowed me. I believe everything happened for a reason.

I found friends that are truly friends, friends that would stand by me, and friends who are just friends by name. It may change my life, forever. I'm glad to say here that, I've fall in love with the word 'friend'. Which is not only a word to me. It means a world to me. They're beautiful. :)

Monday, March 7, 2011

I Can Do It!

I was loafing around when suddenly something struck my mind. Why am I here today? Who am I? What do I do? The answer of all the questions stand in one sentence. I am a student, who basically study for her future. Well, I have to think about my livelihood. Parents aren't going to support me until I'm grey.

Why am I doing this? Literally, because I need it. And perfectly not because I want it. I'm studying what I'm studying because I have to. Not because I want to. I passed my examinations just because I have to pass, not so much of what I understand in what I'm learning. (that's a lie, eventually I understand a tiny bit of it). I have to score not to let myself sit the same paper over again.

True fact is, I have to get the certificate to get me to higher level. Then, Im qualified for a better job perhaps. And maybe, there are posibilities that the jobs out there that are waiting for me does not even related with what I'm studying now. So what's the point? Destiny will leads me there. At the end of the day, one sentence describe everything. C'est la vie.