Second Child Syndrome?

• The first being that this child will neither be the oldest out of the siblings, nor the youngest. They will be in between, ME.
• The child will not be a leader of sorts. They will prefer to follow the trends, ME.
• The child will lack a specific focus, 100% ME.
• They will have very very few friends. Mingling with people won't come very easily to them, SORT OF ME.
• Relationships won't really be their forte. In fact they will try to shy away from it as far as possible, REAL ME.
• They will be fairly shy. They will try to go unnoticed and stay out of the radar. Nonetheless, they will do enough to keep the ball rolling, QUITE ME.
• They will be quite artistic and creative, err, artistic PROBABLY and creative, NO?
• They hate doing monotonous work. SO YES!
• They will not be able to perform under pressure, at all! THERE'S NO NO.
• They are likely to do things that get them into trouble, simply as a way of seeking attention from you, Sorry, it's a YES.
• They definitely hate a comparison to their older sibling. You simply must not say 'why can't you be like your brother/sister?', YES, I HATE IT.
• You are bound to face a negative attitude, a lot of sarcasm, and persistent anger from them. Oh, that's ME!
• Childish? Oh, WE just need attention. 

Little did I know,

I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me. But it's hard to stay mad when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much. My heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst. And then I remember.. to relax, and not try to hold on to it. And then it flows through me like rain. And I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life. You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. Don't worry, you will someday. 

I've gone lunatic.

Have you ever woke up from a dream and suddenly someone crossed your mind? Have you ever wish everytime you wake up someone will be calling you and say something as simple as 'hey'? Have you ever thought of having a one night long talking with someone on the phone till your cell's out of battery? Have you ever thought of spending some time stroll around the park with someone while eating something as light as ice cream or even scramble for tic tacs or skittles.

But instead of those things, you get to watch yourself running to your room just because you thought you heard the sound of vibration of your cell, but when you take a look at it, it's just a dull wallpaper set by you. And late at night, you could hear the sound of gasp when someone is weeping and you could feel a drop or two tears rolling down your cheek. It drag and eventually put you to sleep.

Believe

Everyone wants happiness without any pain,

but remember every rainbow needs a little rain.

My wish,

 

Can I have the stairs please?

Nice to meet you Mr 2011,

HAPPY NEW YEAR! :)
As Mr. 2010 has been so good to me, I hope you will too my dear Mr. 2011.
Mr. 2010, I'm sorry for all my wrongdoings, my bad attitudes and all my mistakes.
You were so good and it's hard for me to say goodbye.
But life has to go on, and I promise you, I'll try my very best to change into a better person.
I'll try my best not to repeat the same old mistakes.
I'm turning to a new blank page and I'll try not to make a mess with it. :')